thoughts

I wonder how much control I have over my life:

1. The things that go wrong

2. The things that seem right

3. What I believe love is supposed to be

4. Everything including even my will to breath

5. How I connect with someone

I'm running around in this circle

Instead of making one distinct right or left turn I just keep reeling around in the safe little circle where things are certain to stay the same

But not the same as in never changing but the same meaning that the same problems keep occurring

what is FATE? I can not believe that everything I do no matter how I change or alter my path that the same out come will occur because if that is true what is there to work for why even bother to breathe or exist

For what?

Cheap thrills family holidays marriage lust and love

Is it a test with someone superior or smarter than me watching and deciding if I have what it takes to each a finish line and if I don’t make it what becomes of me and the ppl left behind

Why not just give up now if I am destined to live this life and its events whether I want it or not that change is impossible and non existent in the end what id there to work forward to

Fate is a force, principle or power that predetermines events, as well as the inevitable events predestined by this force

But what about those destined to fail

or as I see it give up now because every choice you make no matter how much they differ will lead you to the same end


so what in the point of using my brain to even think of which choice to make when no matter what I choose no matter what path I take they all lead to the same end that is basically already decided for me

That’s not a life

That is a script a book a play an opera

But who is the audience?